I've known for forever that the one obstacle in my way from becoming a singer to a performer was a lack of stage presence. It was what the judges during my audition felt needed the most improvement. It was what my dad, (former) voice teacher(s), and I felt was missing. It was what I believe got in the way of being accepted into a music program, because you cannot truly sing opera without feeling it and making the audience feel it too. Nerves certainly get in my way as well, but today, as soon as I stepped into the spotlight, the paralyzing fear was gone, my throat that had felt so tight backstage had loosened, and I did not shake uncontrollably.
For the first time ever, I thought about each word I was singing, I thought about what I interpret the song as meaning, and I tried to make it come through in my face and body. Mind you, while it was all happening, my thoughts suffered a few seconds' delay and I couldn't really process everything that was going on. The song was nearing the end more and more and part of me was in disbelief that it was almost over. I still am!
When one of the judges later gave the finalists their critique, first, I thought about how I felt like I was on American Idol. And second, she said "very good stage presence". GASP!
Today meant a lot to me, not only because I finally broke down that stubborn wall of reservedness, but also because my friends and family were there to share this moment with me and cheer me on. It wouldn't have felt as good without you!
Pictured above (one of the hundreds of photos my mom took of the flowers): two orchids in the beautiful bouquet that my travelling sisters and Pleuvy got for me. It's breathtaking!
Take that, UBC Music Program!! :)
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