IV: Being Spontaneous

I almost spent over $1000 today.

Granted, it would have been a worthy investment. I have been thinking of getting a MacBook since the summer when Pleuvy and Nicky got a MacBook Pro.

The excitement fuelled me all throughout work today. I kept thinking "YES! I'm going to get it," "Hmmm, MacBook or MacBook Pro?", and "I'm not going to get any sleep tonight with all the Mac learning." But by the time 5pm rolled around, it had all subsided. Even though I went to the store.

When I first starting earning money, I was careful with my spending. Maybe that was because I was working part-time and didn't have much to spend. But when I had saved up enough money to buy my first big-ticket item, a digital SLR, it was done without much thought. This is a person who spends 30-45 minutes in London Drugs choosing a cleanser or shampoo.

Maybe it all boils down to choice. I've pictured myself having a digital SLR, I've seen myself typing away at a Mac. And with day-to-day purchases and an overwhelming number of options whose outcomes are not so immediately tangible, it's sometimes a bit easier to make snap decisions that cost you a grand.

But I wonder, if I let myself wait out the commercialist excitement all of those times, would I have been any happier? Would I have abandoned that quest altogether? Or would I have gone through with it anyway?

I see myself with that MacBook, guys.

Photo caption: one of the first pics I ever took with Neru, of flowers given to me by a friend.