The Giving Tree

Today was just a bad day for me. I don't know if it was an avalanche of exhaustion from weeks of sleep deprivation that took over me, the situations I found myself in, hormones, or an undercurrent of uncertainty and self-doubt, but I felt emotionally spent and raw to the point where I decided that I needed to take a vacation day tomorrow. I desperately need to just rest and do nothing.

I am not the most selfless person you will ever meet, nor am I the most giving, but I couldn't help but feel used, unappreciated, overlooked, and left out. And with all of the episodes of Friday Night Lights I've recently been re-watching with my parents (which aren't the reason for my lack of sleep), I couldn't help but identify with Landry and his explosion to Tyra about The Giving Tree:

I've also come to realize that some of the things I can't stand are people who are emotionally unpredictable and/or who consciously discount me. Maybe it's the Libra in me who requires emotionally balanced people and a balanced environment, or maybe it's that I feel that I need to be liked by everyone (which is immature and stupid, I know). Am I being hypersensitive, paranoid, or needy? Likely. But I can't shake this off and it's adversely affecting me.

I'm not particularly dependent on others, but sometimes all I want is to be asked.

Barring that, I'll take a Pensieve please!