Square One

It's time to turn over a new leaf. I've been filling my head with distractions for the past few months--not finding time to think or absorb, to take adequate care of my mind or body--and it has taken its toll. When I do get a moment's worth of peace, I let what I've been muffling in the chambers of my heart finally sing. And what I've found is that I don't always like what I'm hearing, but that I have to listen; any more delays will be far worse for me in the long run.

So this is it. I am starting from scratch once again. I am committing to myself. I will make myself think by making myself write, and I will make myself find calm by recreating the discipline I had for yoga around the inception of this blog in 2010. Way back when things were simpler.

No more excuses and no more distractions. Comincio da capo. 

So here goes...

Yesterday I did a pilates class with one of my favourite instructors. I realized how out of shape I had become. The indication was my inability to do a roll up, which for the past couple of years had come easily to me. But I have gotten used to being a couch potato since moving out, even though I now live within 10 minutes (walking) to three yoga studios.

Today I went to hot yoga and was feeling sore from yesterday's class. I came home to realize that I had no tomatoes to make my pasta salad, and instead of going to No Frills for produce (I would rather go to Kin's or Young Brothers for better quality), I decided to make Kraft Dinner macaroni & cheese to accompany my Greek salad from yesterday. I wasn't craving it and I didn't enjoy it, but the lasagna in my fridge had not fully defrosted yet and so I had to eat junk food against my will. Now it seems fitting that I would purge Villetta of its last morsel of culinary laziness in order to make way for a new, recipe-following and meal-planning me. This seems to be the only way I will learn to cook more than my 3 staple dishes (pasta salad, Greek salad, and tomato sauce). Boy got me an Italian cookbook for my birthday that resembles a bible, and I also have a few Italian cookbooks from Giagi's collection that I brought here to keep me company. Goal: Cook a new recipe by Friday. That means I'll have to choose one by tomorrow so that I can buy ingredients. I have so very few of those!

I've had an internet shopping bug for the past week. As you may recall, I spent a large amount on vegan face and bath products last week. My order arrived today and it was like Christmas, and then my two coworkers' orders also arrived and it was like Christmas times three. I have been looking forward to trying out my new stuff all day! Pre-bedtime nightly ritual, here I come!

Since that order, I have also purchased a coat online (huge risk, I know--it was my first ever online clothing purchase and I have low expectations about it fitting correctly) and a pair of nail clippers from Japan (I am used to a pair of Japanese nail clippers from my former home and so I will not settle for anything less!).

Boy is off to Austin, Texas for work this week--he's shooting a yoga event, fittingly enough--and so I will be temporarily reverting back to my single ways--which, let's face it, were never wild and crazy. Instead, here I am typing away on Chloe as I used to. And thinking about my next online purchase.

I sure wish my place allowed pets. Coming home to a cat would be so nice.